“Sadyang mailap ang humanap ng tunay na pag-ibig. Madaling sabihing mahal kita, madaling isiping mahal ka niya, pero paano mo malalamang . . . eto na, eto na talaga?” We'll we really can't tell if he/she is the "ONE"

 

Pano mo ba malalaman siya na nga?  I have asked this question to myself many times.. BUT we can never tell. Ako kasi, gusto ko lagi sa relationship yung sana siya na. Nakakapagod kaya bumalik sa umpisa. In love we can always say that we finally found the one for us, but THINGS really happen for a REASON. I fell inlove, had a hearbreak, gone through depression, sadness, fear.. in short.. PAIN. Yes, kasi malalaman mo na nagmahal ka kapag nasaktan ka. Else how would you know what LOVE is all about if you never experienced pain?
 

Can there be love without pain? I'd say NO. there can never be love without pain. Kasi di ba.. you can truly experience all the joys of life if you have  gone through pain. and from pain, you find out how strong you are as a person - at napatunayan ko na yan ng maraming beses sa sarili ko.

At one point in my life.. I built this wall.. brick by brick to protect my heart..  and I find it hard to TRUST again.. Kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko.. " I don't want to rush in getting into a new relationship, kung meron man dumating siguro.. pwede na yung wala kaming pinanghahawakan na kami or what basta ang alam ko masaya ako at siya "sana"  tipong bahala na basta ewan. Ayoko na lang masaktan uli,  hindi kas malayong mangyari bahala na si God. in the other side .. when it comes to the point na dumistansya na ung isa ? syempre sasabihin mung ndi masakit . walang commitments kaya ndi ka masasaktan .. peru kapag nadama mu na .. may magagawa kba ? e ndi nman kayo diba ?

 

Naniniwala ako na minsan talaga mapaglaro ang tadhana,...  as time goes by, in a the most unexpected time of your life: may makikilala at makikilala ka. So there it happened, I fell in love again, but I had this TRUST issue.  I was too blind to see, and I find it so hard to believe..  so parang "okay" lang na walang commitment, yung tipong "kami" pero hindi naman talaga.  doesn’t have any commitments but doing sweet things together .. You talk all day , all night.. daming moments, hanggang sa.. "okay.. MAHAL ko na ata.." di ko na siya kayang mawala,  and saBi ko.. I'll give it a "try" again.. siguro hindi naman niya ako sasaktan kasi alam niya kung gaano kasakit yung mga pinagdaanan ko. So there, I was then into a "COMMITED RELATIONSHIP" status. pero andun pa din yung takot.. There was so much love to give.. but  I have had so much fear until I realize what I was doing wrong in the relationship, 'till one day I just realize we're not together anymore. And no matter how hard you try to bring back what has been lost to save the relationship or to bring back that relationship, and It's not working..  you've got no other choice but to let go .. and you're back to being strangers..  after din nasabi ko nalang sa sarili ko.. "Cel, you have tried your best, try even more harder the next time". Minsan naiisip ko, could have it been better if we stayed as friends and didn't cross the line? I' don't know. But sabi ko nga, at lagi kong tinatanim sa isip ko. "Never REGRET anything, because at one point, it was EXACTLY what you wanted."  

 

Now, I made up this CHOICE. It's the choice to trust, to love, to put myself out there, knowing full well that I can get HURT... I have learned my lessons, I have given forgiveness and set myself free from hatred and not holding any grudges.  If you love someone.. just set him/her FREE. and wish them well.  "All is well ika nga.

Just like the lyrics goes..  " Love is an Open door.. Life can be so much more.."   Love equates to Life. Sometimes we just have to pause for a little while , a little rest sometimes would be enough to LOVE again. Kaya bakit ka titigil? Pwede naman huminto sandali. ^_^